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i had moved

2010-02-05T00:44:00.001+08:00

http://leieparanoico.wordpress.com/

=)

2010-01-28T17:02:00.002+08:00

well i m officially transferring to CAT in few weeks or months time, and I will be able to exempt for 6 holy papers! HAHA

mean i will need to suffer for 3 paper and then i can get my CAT cert..a good news to me but a bad news to my mom IF SHE LEARN ABOUT IT..so bless me okie hope that this secret wouldnt leak out..LOLX..

i need to start thinking whether I wan to take T9 & T10 or T8 & T9 or T8 & T10..messy? yes i guess so too..i have to go do some research on the difference..okie la i still have few months to do research but i ask and google ard like not much ppl taking T8, according to WenJie T8 is lots of theory tt's y many lecturer dun advice in taking..well mayb i can heel e advice.. =b

Resolution? Wishlist?

2010-01-09T00:46:00.004+08:00

is it too late to set any resolution*or shld i call tt wishlist instead? for year 2010? i want my 2010 to be a fruitful want, can i? may i?

1) work hard for my exams
2) pass all my exams *well i no need super gd grads a just pass will do*
3) find a perm job *or at least a 1yr contract kind nt temp or 3-6mths kinda of jobs*
4) love myself more - LOL LOL LOL
5) new laptop
6) new camera
7) instant camera
8) bkk trip with my love - liping
9) go backpacking with liping *IF my job allow mi to take long unpaid leave LOL*
10) nepal with liping *was it? xD forgotten wopps*

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for time being the list is short..but who know when i will add in new resolution..
well my current workplace is gonna FY soon, but at tis period a bitchy mi got e intention to leave..i saw a job opening @ starhub - finance officer, i want to try for it. i wan a better prospect job i want a job that allow me to learn..my current job dun let mi learn alot..

i m actually waiting for the finance side to have opening but then if i m not wrong i have to wait until aft FY, and not even cfm will get a post there as they need to have headcount then they can hire another perm..but e wait have to be so long..i wan to go there cox i got fren there and i wan to learn new things related to my studies!

tis make mi so sian =( cant make up my bloody fucking mind..

2010-01-03T01:39:00.001+08:00

i still to lost faith in everything including love myself frenship i mux b mad

-琳-

2009-12-30T08:20:00.001+08:00

1 more day to 2010!!!! omg time fly lo so fast 1 yr over agn n we have to grow older agn, n i'm still clueless abt my life haix..

-琳-

rainy xmas~

2009-12-24T09:49:00.001+08:00

it's a rainy xmas!!! y cant it be a 白色圣诞leh!!!!!

sick sick sick

2009-12-09T19:58:00.001+08:00

sick
i m bloody sick =(

exam

2009-12-03T22:57:00.003+08:00

so sad..exam is on sat and i predically havent start studying due to some personal problem..oh god pls let me pass okie, i will be good and study for the next paper!

xmas coming~ but i m not happy at all cox no $$$$ to do anything..i have to pay for bloody acca member fee..it is fucking $250 for member of 1 year..exam fee is abt GBP50-70 a module..lesson fee is $500-600 a paper..y do i torture myself sia..torture my brain n my pocket damn dumb la me..

i feel like switching job to a higher pay admin or finance or acct asst, but current job ppl is nice but i can say no prospect cox is a temp, shld i start to find new job or stay n wait for better job opening?

LOL

2009-11-27T13:32:00.002+08:00

The below conversation is what mi n my fren n her cousin overheard on the bus~ we were trying so hard to stop ourselves from laughing!!! Lol~

Guy: 你爱我吗？
Ger: 我觉得我已经爱到了我的limit…
Guy: 什么意思？
Ger: 我喜欢人家爱我多过我爱他们…这样就不会受到伤害…
Guy: 这样我不是得爱你比你爱我多？
Ger: 对咯…
Guy: 这样我不是很stress。我要回去想怎样让我爱你比你爱我多！

*all of us cover our mouth trying hard not to laugh out too loud, n i guess they might notice us so~*

- QUIET FOR A MOMENT~

Guy: hMmMmmMm i smell of stingray
den he move forward to his gf n smell her..
Guy: u oso smell like stingray~
both LOL
den act slp~

FUNNY~

after we board dwn the bus~ liping tel mi tt she smell of stingray, kang kong, lala n hokkien mee~ WAHAHAHAHAHAHA

My Love

2009-11-09T22:08:00.005+08:00

My new found love!! lolx..

when den i can buy sia.. =((

EOS 1000D Kit EFS 18-55mm f/3.5-5.6 IS - SGD 999.00

EOS 450D Kit EF-S 18-55mm f/3.5-5.6 IS - SGD 1,199.00
EOS 450D Kit II EF-S18-200mm f/3.5-5.6 IS - SGD 1,899.00

EOS 500D Kit EF-S 18-55mm f/3.5-5.6 IS - SGD 1,399.00
EOS 500D Kit II EF-S18-200mm f/3.5-5.6 IS - SGD 2,099.00

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on a lighter note..today Liping cheer my day! she email me telling me that STARHUB IS BRINGING IN IPHONE BY YEAR END!

i am a happy ger now..waiting for iphone to knock on the door of Starhub!!!! *sit n wait*

HAHAHAHA

2009-10-26T23:43:00.001+08:00

bloody hell i m having ulcer and it is killing me!
i got so much stuff in my 2010 wishlist! oh man~
haha..i will slowly update my wishlist eh..

now is time to study hard and go to bed!
tml is doom day, i got lots of undone stuff to clear tml.

was wondering shld i switch job or remain? haix

2009-10-19T15:05:00.002+08:00

exam is on 7 Nov..haha so sian i m left with 2weekend to study.. =.=""
must start preparing liao cox i dun wanna fail la..so scare of goin for endless of exam..

i want to get new watch! haha..
this

or this *have not seen tis design yet*

hoping that i can get it by yr end..

=(

2009-09-25T13:13:00.000+08:00

i m gonna start preparing for my exam soon..tis will be my very last chance to see if i can continue my ACCA route, if not i will need to switch to CAT but seriously i was wondering did i choose the rite subject to study? is this wat i wan in my life?

if i were to continue doin Com Tech in poly after graduating frm ITE will my life be different now? but at tt point of time is not what i want to do or wat i wan to study..to most might knw abt my family situation. at tt point of time work is the best choice for mi of cox..but after saving up enuff to study i didnt go back to IT industry..cox my mom keep nagging tt see ur aunt husband..see my fren husband..see my fren kids etc..keep nagging saying tt now they r so old liao they still have to continue upgrading themselves for courses as IT keep improving..she keep emphazing that i will need to spend a lot more to study IT and eventually i choose to study accounts..y accounts..i guess while working @ E&Y as admin, my curiousity for AR hit me..how everything works etc..

but after i really touch on it i realise that thing is so diff..it dun seem to be the life i wan..is much of too late to regret now..mayb i shld get some sponsorship thingy and go study my IT again..as in mayb study account but IT too?

MAD? yes i guess i m..and is VERY VERY VERY MAD..

i hope thing will get better..and if i really cant pass tis time round..

should i go back to study IT or find any entry lvl job to work..

i got a brother to look after in near future..my dad is getting old..i do have to have a decent salary to feed or shld i say to look after the whole family..

can some1 teach me what shld i do..

2009-09-11T23:27:00.000+08:00

there is so many movies i wanna watch~ but i m too poor to watch! haha...
i miss my liping..lolx..

i need to start mugging for my upcoming exam in nov..i wan to pass..

i need holiday~ i wan to have long long long holiday..i wan to go out of SG and relax myself..

=)

2009-09-04T15:37:00.000+08:00

random update about me,
hahahahaha..not sure if i mentioned i had pass my f3..
yes finally i passed my f3..now i left with f2 to go..

i hope everything will goes well for me..i wanna pass my f2~~ so i m gonna work hard now~~

=)

=)

2009-08-25T14:18:00.002+08:00

was trying to get some rest as e complain queen had went for a meeting. and was looking @ yahoo news and i saw an article about children dumping their old folk @ nursin home and dont even pay or visit them.

reason being is their have their family problems/tight in cash/busy/sick.

ever wonder have you ever done your calculation b4 you put ur old folks to nursing home? have you ever work out something with your sibling to chips in with the fee?

are you that cold blooded till you cant even remember who your parents is? who is the one giving you food and bringing you up giving you a life to live on? aren't they your parents? do you feel for them? they scrimp and save to pull you tru studies, they wrk hard to get you food and yet now you just dump them in nursing home and nv visit them. Do you know how hurt it is?

think of this, when you are old and are unable to feed yourself and ur saving had already been use up for medication, your kids dun1 you at home they find you troublesome. and send you to the nursing home and never visit you, will you be happy? will you get hurt? but sorry you cant blame on others, because the Young's always follow the example the old ones does..so you did this to their grandparents they will do this to you too. i am not cursing any1 who put their old folks @ nursing home, neither am i criticizing those who put their old folks @ home.

but please visit them. they need love & concern too! they give you love & concern when you are young so now you only need to pay them a visit even if you are so busy Sunday you dont even have times? life is like a cycle, it goes round n round n round.

when you are old you will be like them too. do you want yours kids to throw you in nusring home and dont wanna visit you? and you dont get to see your kids and grandchildren. maybe your grandchildren dont even know you exist as they dont see you so often.

HELP!

2009-08-24T17:40:00.001+08:00

HELP!

i am getting fatter and fatter =(

i am forever saying i need a diet but when good food appear in front of mi i munch n munch..LOL..

i want to go roller blading! hmmm..is i want to learn..so old still learning eh no choice i m stupid ma..but blading really swear alot! i sweat more when blading~~

and thanks to liping i am gonna go to the Zoo on this sat happy~~~~~~~~~~`

2009-08-13T16:52:00.002+08:00

Seriously i need to go on a diet! i m getting fatter AGAIN.

i must cut down on my fat no more oily food for me.

HAPPY~

2009-08-07T16:11:00.002+08:00

muahahahahahaha..it had been age since i last updated reason is so so so simple..i m too lazy to login after work..

anyway tis few weeks my poor liping went tru alot of unhappy thing..i hope she can pull tru~ i will alwy be here for her!!!

LIPING JIA YOU!!!!!!!!!!!

me and your other besties will alwy be here to be ur pillar! not caterpillar okie.. =b

i got new loves~~ lolx...

2009-08-02T22:50:00.001+08:00

British English vs. Singaporean English ?

Who says our English is teruk? Just read below - Ours is simple, short, concise, straight-to-the-point, effective etc.

WHEN GIVING A CUSTOMER BAD NEWS
Britons: I'm sorry, sir, but we don't seem to have the sweater you want in your size, but if you give me a moment, I can call the other outlets for you.

Singaporean: No stock!

RETURNING A CALL
Britons: Hello, this is John Smith. Did anyone call for me a few moments ago?

Singaporean: Hello, who call huh?

ASKING SOMEONE TO MAKE WAY
Britons: Excuse me, I would like to get by. Would you please make way?

Singaporean: S-kew me..

WHEN SOMEONE OFFERS TO PAY
Britons: Hey! Put your wallet away, this drink is on me.

Singaporean: No need lah.

WHEN ASKING FOR PERMISSION
Britons: Excuse me, but do you think it would be possible for me to enter through this door?

Singaporean: (pointing at the door) Can ah?

WHEN ENTERTAINING
Britons: Please make yourself right at home.

Singaporean: No need shy one lah!

WHEN DOUBTING SOMEONE
Britons: I don't recall you giving me the money.

Singaporean: Where got?

WHEN DECLINING AN OFFER
Britons: I would prefer not to do that, if you don't mind.

Singaporean: Don't want lah. ?

IN DISAGREEING ON A TOPIC OF DISCUSSION
Britons: Err...Tom, I have to stop you there. I understand where you're coming from, but I really have to disagree with what you said about the issue. ?

Singaporean: You mad ah?

WHEN ASKING SOMEONE TO LOWER THEIR VOICE.
Britons: Excuse me, but could you please lower your voice? I'm trying to concentrate over here.

Singaporean: Shut up lah! ?

WHEN ASKING SOMEONE IF HE/SHE KNOWS YOU..
Britons: Excuse me, but I noticed you staring at me for sometime. Do I know you?

Singaporean: See what, see what?

WHEN ASSESSING A TIGHT SITUATION.
Britons: We seem to be in a bit of a predicament at the moment..

Singaporean: Die lah!!

WHEN TRYING TO FIND OUT WHAT HAD HAPPENED
Britons: Will someone tell me what has just happened? ?

Singaporean: What happened ah? Why like that one lah?

WHEN SOMEONE DID SOMETHING WRONG
Britons: This isn't the way to do it. Here, let me show you.

Singaporean: Like that also don't know how to do!

So which would you prefer? Send this to your Singaporean friends and let them have a laugh too. Good day! (^_^ )

2009-07-24T00:02:00.002+08:00

wanted to blog abt some funny incident that i bump into recently but too lazy to write out..shall use my saturday to blog it out IF ONLY I M HARDWORKING ENOUGH.

LOL..

was doing some online shopping and i saw these pretty stuff!!!

2009-07-19T22:40:00.001+08:00

my poor liping is sick since thurs..hopefully she will recover soon.
stupid sickness demon get awy frm her!!

2009-07-14T11:21:00.001+08:00

boring~

havent been sleeping well for the pass 2days n my migraine is killing me!
but lucky i think i no need to work on Thurs!!!

2009-07-02T22:34:00.002+08:00

i am gonna go science centre on Saturday~~ weeeeee~~~~

i want to go visit the Da Vinci - The Genius

and if i got the time i wanna go explore the whole Science Centre~~~~~~

liping~ i will let you know what is nice in the exhibition. =x

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was rather "busy" during work this few days..
but is acting busy de busy..hahahahaha..
had been emailing liping every now and then talk rubbish..surf net etc..
when are they gonna teach me new things?
at least teach me 1 more thing so that i can pass my time faster eh..

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wasnt feeling well e past few days, so boring~

2009-06-26T20:05:00.003+08:00

Just some random thought, so please dont ask me what happen.

Life is like a novel, with lots of chapter in it.
some chapter might be boring.
some chapter might be thrilling.
some chapter might be hurting.
some chapter might be heartening.
some chapter might be loving.
some chapter might be shortening.
some chapter might be stressing.

but no matter what chapter you are in, it is alway a learning process for everyone and do look ahead of it. Be it a sad or happy chapter, be it a sad or happy ending. This is something which we human have to go through. some of the thing that is happening or had happen might hurt you deep and leave you scar. but it will be a lesson to learn. do remember on the good memories you had and forget the bad want(s).

People comes and goes, the cycle repeat itself. How many really stay by your side? no one can answer. people grow people change. some one you know for years might change over night due to certain reason. some one you know might just leave this world without saying any last word to you. some one who you think is your close friend might betray you. some one who love you might just be a player. some one who you love might not be your the one.

so how many of your friends really stay by your side going through the chapter of your life?

2009-06-25T11:26:00.000+08:00

random~
email sent by liping

Please read till end...
This is for all the single, married, divorced, widowed individuals, who take life for granted. Please, read this story until the end, it is such an
opener.

You never Know.........!
Just two years after our marriage, hubby brought up the idea of asking Mother to move from the rural hometown and spend her remaining years
with us. Hubby's father passed away while he was still very young. Mother endured much hardship and struggled all on her own to provide for him, see him
through to a university degree. You could say that she suffered a great deal and did everything you could expect of a woman to bring hubby to where
he is today. I immediately agreed and started packing the spare room, which has a balcony facing the South to let her enjoy the sunshine and plant
greenery. Hubby stood in the bright room, and suddenly just picked me up and started spinning round and round. As I begged him to put me down, he said:
"Lets go fetch mother." Hubby is tall and big sized and I love to test on his chest and enjoy the feeling that he could pick me up at any moment put the tiny me into his pockets. Whenever we have an argument and both refuses to back down, he would pick me up and spin me over his head continuously until I surrender and beg for mercy. I became addicted to this kind of panic-joy feeling. Mother brought along her countryside habits and lifestyle with her. For
example; I am so used to buying flowers to decorate the living room, she could not stand it and would comment: "I do not know how you young people spend your money, why do you buy flowers for? You also can't eat flowers!"
I smiled and said: "Mum, with flowers in the house, our mood will also become better." Mother continues to grumble away, and hubby smiled: "Mum, this is a city-people's habit; slowly you will get use to it."

Mother stopped saying anything. But every time thereafter, whenever came home with flowers, she would ask me how much it costs. I told her and she would shake her head and express displeasure. Sometimes, when I come home with lots of shopping bags, she would ask each and every item how much they cost, I would tell her honestly and she would get even more upset about it. Hubby playfully pinched my nose and said: "You little fool, just don't tell her the full price of everything would solve it."

There begins the friction to our otherwise happy lifestyle. Mother hates it most when hubby wakes up early to prepare the breakfast. In your view, how could the man of the house cook for the wife? At the breakfast table, mother facial expression is always like the dark clouds before a thunderstorm and I would pretend not to notice. She would use her chopsticks and make a lot of noise with it as her silent protest. As I am a dance teacher in the Children's Palace and am exhausted from along day of dancing around, I do not wish to give up the luxury of that additional few minutes in the comfort of my bed and hence I turned a deaf ear to all the protest mother makes. From time to time, mother would help out with some housework, but soon her help created additional work for me. For example: she would keep all kinds of plastic bags accumulating them so that she sell them later on, and resulted in our house being filled with all the trash bags; she would scrimp on dish washing detergent when helping to wash the dishes and so as not to hurt her feelings, I would quietly wash them again.
One day, late at night, mother saw me quietly washing the dishes, and "Bam" she slams her bedroom door and cried very loudly in her room. Hubby was placed in a difficult position, and after that, he did not speak to me for that entire night. I pretended to be a spoilt child, tried acting cute, but he totally ignored me.... I got mad and asked him: "What did I do wrong?"
Hubby stared at me and said: "Can't you just give in to her once? We couldn't possibly die eating from a bowl however unclean it is, right?" After that incident, for a long period of time, mother did not speak to me and you can feel that there is a very awkward feeling hanging in the house. During that period of cold war, hubby was caught in dilemma as to who to please. In order to stop her son from having to prepare breakfast, mother took on the "all important" task of preparing breakfast without any prompting. At the breakfast table, mother would look at hubby happily eating his breakfast and cast that reprimanding stare at me for having failed to perform my duty as a wife. To avoid the embarrassing breakfast situation, I resorted to buying my own breakfast on my way to work. That night, while in bed, hubby was a little upset and asked me: "LD, is it because you think that mum's cooking is not clean that's why you chose not to eat at home?" He then turned his back on me and left me alone in tears as feeling of go to work. I wanted to clear this out and have a good talk with hubby. I reached
his office and his secretary gave me a weird look and said: "Mr. Tan's mother had a traffic accident and is now in the hospital." I stood there in shock. I rushed to the hospital and by the time I found hubby, mother had already passed away. Hubby did not look at me, his face was expressionless. I looked at mother's pale white and thin face and I couldn't control the tears in my eyes. My god, how could this happen? Throughout the funeral, hubby did not say a single word to me, with only the occasional disgusted stare at me. I only managed to find out brief facts about the accident from other people. That day, after mother left the
house, she walked in dazed toward the bus stop, apparently intending to go back to her old house back in the countryside.
As hubby ran after her, she tried to walk faster and as she tried to cross the street, a public bus came and hit her...I finally understood how much hubby must hate me, if I had not thrown up that morning, if we had not quarreled, if....In his heart, I am indirectly the killer of his mother. Hubby moved into mother's room and came home every night with a strong liquor smell on him. And me, I am buried under the guilt and self-pity and could hardly breathe. I wanted to explain to him, tell him that we are going to have our baby soon, but each time, I saw the dead look in his eyes, all the words I have at the brink of my mouth just fell back in. I had rather he hit me real hard or give me a big and thorough scolding though none of these events happening had been my fault at all.
Many days of suffocating silence went by and as the days went by, hubby came home later and later. The deadlock between us continues, we were living together like strangers who don't know each other. I am like the dead knot in his heart. One day, I passed by a western restaurant, looking into the glass window, I saw hubby and a girl sitting facing each other and he very lightly brushed her hair for her, I understood what it meant. After recovering from that moment of shock, I entered the restaurant, stood in front of my hubby and stared hard at him, not a tear in my eyes. I have nothing to say to him, and there is no need to say anything. The girl looked at me, looks at
hubby, stands up and wanted to go, hubby stretched out his hand and stopped her.
He stared back at me, challenging me. I can only hear my slow heart beat, beating, one by one as if at the brink of death. I eventually backed
down, if I had stood that any longer, I will collapse together with the baby inside me. That night, he did not come home; he had chosen to use that
as a way to indicate to me: Following mother's death so did our love for each other. He did not come home anymore after that. Sometimes, when I returned home from work, I can tell that the cupboard had been touched - he had returned to take some of his stuff. I no longer wish to call him; the initial desire to explain everything to him vanished.
I lived alone; I go for my medical checkups alone, my heart breaks again and again every time I see a guy carefully helping his wife through the physical examination. My office colleagues hinted to me to consider aborting the baby, I told them No, I will not. I insisted on having to this baby, perhaps it is my way of repaying mother for causing her death. One day, I came home and I saw hubby sitting in the living room. The whole house was filled with cigarette smoke. On the coffee table, there was this piece of paper. I know what it is all about without even looking at it. In the two months plus of living alone, I have gradually learned to find peace within myself. I looked at him, removed my hat and said: "You wait a while, I will sign." He looked at me, mixed feelings in his eyes, just like mine. As I hang up my coat, I keep repeating to myself "You cannot cry, you cannot cry..." my eyes hurt terribly, but I refused to let tears come out from there. After I hung up my coat, hubby's eyes stared fixed at my bulging tummy. I smiled, walked over to the coffee table and pulled the paper towards me.! Without even looking at what it says, I signed my name on it and usher the paper to him. "LD, are you pregnant?" Since mother's accident, this is the first time he spoke to me. I could not control my tears any further and they fell like raindrops. I said: "Yes, but its ok, you can leave now." He did not go, in the dark, we sat, facing each other.
Hubby slowly moved over me, his tears wet the blanket. In my heart, everything seems so far away, so far that even if I sprint, I could never reach
them. I cannot remember how many times he repeated "sorry" to me. I had originally thought that I would forgive him, but now I can't. In the western
restaurant, in front of that girl, that cold look in his eyes, I will never forget, ever. We have drawn such deep scars in each other's heart. For me, it's unintentional; for him, totally intentional. I had been waiting for this moment of reconciliation, but I realized now, what had gone past
is gone forever and could not repeated. Other than the thought of the baby inside me that would bring some warmth to my heart, I am totally cold towards him, I no longer eat anything he buys for me, I don't take any presents from him and I stopped talking to him.
From the moment I signed on that piece of paper, marriage and love had vanished from my heart. Sometimes, hubby will try to come into the
bedroom, but when he walks in, I will walk out to the living room. He had no choice but to sleep in mother's room. At night, from his room, I can hear
light sounds of groaning, I kept quiet. This used to be his trick; last time, whenever I ignore him, he would fake illness and I will surrender and find out what is wrong with him, he would then grab me and laugh. He has forgotten that last time I cared for him and am concerned because there was love, but now, what is there between us? Hubby's groaning came on and off continuing but I continuously ignored him. Almost everyday, he would buy something for the baby, infant products, children products and books that kids like to read. Bags and bags of it stacked inside his room till it is full. I know he is trying to use
this to reach out to me, but I am no longer moved by his actions. He has no choice but to lock himself in his room and I can hear his typing away on his computer keyboard, maybe he is now addicted to web surfing but none of that matters to me anymore.
It was sometime towards the end of spring in the following year, one late night, I screamed because of a sudden stomach pain, hubby came rushing into the room, its like he did not change and sleep, and had been waiting for this moment. He carried me and ran down the stairs, stopped a car, holding my hand very tightly and kept wiping the sweat off my brow, throughout the journey to the hospital. Once we reached the hospital, he carried me and hurried into the delivery suite. Lying on the back of his skinny but warmth body, a thought crossed my mind: In my lifetime, who else would love me as much as he did?
He held the delivery suite door opened and watch me go in; his warm eyes caused me to manage a smile at him despite my contraction pain. Coming
out of the delivery room, hubby looked at our son and me, eyes tear with joy and he kept smiling. I reached out and touched his hand. Hubby looked at
me, smiling and then he slowly collapsed onto the floor. I cried out for him in pain... He smiled, but without opening that tired eyes of his... I had
thought that I would never shed any tear for him, but the truth is, I have never felt a deeper pain cutting through my body at that moment. Doctor
said that by the time hubby discovered he had liver cancer, it was already in terminal stage and it was a miracle that he managed to last this long.
I asked the doctor when he first discovered he had cancer. Doctor said about 5 months ago and consoled me saying: "Prepare for his funeral."
I disregarded the nurse's objection and rushed home, I went into his room and checked his computer, and a suffocating pain hits me. Hubby's cancer
was discovered 5 months ago, his groaning was real, and I had thought that... the computer showed over 200 thousand words he wrote for our son:
"Son, just for you, I have persisted, to be able to take a look at you before I fall, is my biggest wish now... I know that in your life, you will have many happiness and maybe some setbacks, if only I can accompany you throughout that journey, how nice would it be. But daddy now no longer has that chance. Daddy has written inside here all the possible difficulties and problems you may encounter during your lifetime, when you meet with these problems, you can refer to daddy's suggestion....
Son, after writing these 200 thousand words, I feel as if I have accompanied you through life journey. To be honest, daddy is very happy. Do love
your mother, she has suffered, she is the one who loves you most and also the one who loves me most..." From play school to primary school, to secondary,
university, to work and even in dealing with questions of love, everything big and small was written there. Hubby has also written a letter for me:
"My dear, to marry you is my biggest happiness, forgive me for the pain I have caused you, forgive me for not telling you my illness, because I
want to see you be in a joyful mood waiting for the arrival of our baby...My dear, if you cried, it means that you have forgiven me and I would
smile, thank you for loving me...These presents, I'm afraid I cannot give them to our son personally, could you help me to give some of them to him every
year, the dates on what to give when are all written on the packaging’’ Going back to the hospital, hubby is still in coma. I brought our son
over and place him beside him. I said: "Open your eyes and smile, I want our son to remember being in the warmth of your arms..." He struggled to open
his in this world is gone forever..."Cruel misunderstandings one after another disrupted the blissful footsteps to our family. Our originals intend of having Mother enjoy some quiet and peaceful moments in her remaining years with us went terribly wrong as destiny's secret is finally revealed at a price,
every thing became too late."........This is a true story.

LEARNING POINT - DO NOT EVER HOLD ON TO OFFENCES!!!
I am totally speechless, this story brought tears to my eyes as I read through each line eager to know what would happen next. It truly showed the devastating power of grudges and anger! Simple humility and communication would have resolved most of the problems in that story, as well as patience.... This story has really touched my heart and life as a whole and it has stimulated a paradigm shift. Though it is very sad, it is also very refreshing to know that from today, I can consciously start to live a life free of grudge. People please let's live a life devoid of grudge.

2009-06-22T23:20:00.002+08:00

had a busy day @ work today.
cause there is 1 aunty that love to throw all her work to me.
but i still love my new colleagues.
they are nice people.
and my sup look fierce but actually she is nice too.
actually i shoud say.
my section people all is cranky.
haha.
well i am 1 cranky girl too.
but then i just started working like 4th days.
so wasnt so cranky YET.
as i still got lots of stuff to learn.
i had apparently finish learning 30% of my jobscope.
but i have problem with the routing of eInovice as every morning i was busy nua-ing on my seat.
taking my own sweet time to do my stuff.
then rush in the afternoon.
=x
but tomorrow onwards i have to FIGHT all the way in the morning because there is too much invoice for me to send to vendor for payment.
hence i must act hardworking eh.
L
O
L

2009-06-19T10:31:00.001+08:00

i'd a dream, in my dream some1 told me this: ''Haha. Tats also 1 thing i can confirm. I dun wanna leave u. My love for u is growin more n more for u day by day. I love u may seems to u like a common word. But i will try my best to use action to prove to u.''

After i woke up, i ask myself: will this really happen in reality?

2009-06-18T13:43:00.003+08:00

dont know what happen.
i losing appetite again.
only manage to finish half a bowl of bak chou mee

2009-06-17T20:56:00.001+08:00

夜里传来雨的声音　
轻轻拨动心的旋律　
情不自禁想起你　
那些甜蜜的回忆
总是不小心就淋湿了我的眼睛　

爱情需要一些呼吸　
偶尔保持一点距离
回到朋友的关系　
任你自由的来去　
从此想念你只能放在我心里
你还爱我吗　
一直好想问你这句话　
却又怕　听到你真实的回答
你还爱我吗　
为何你总是不说话　
眼看我为爱不爱挣扎
你爱我吗　

好久没有你的消息　
心里还惦记着你
在这冷冷的夜里　
感觉那么的熟悉　
好想再见你想听听你的声音
你还爱我吗　
一直好想问你这句话　
却又怕　听到你真实的回答
你还爱我吗　
为何你总是不说话　
眼看我为爱不爱挣扎
你爱我吗　

感情的路总让人好无助　
我会学着面对独处
给深爱的你祝福
oh　
一直好想问你这句话　
却又怕　听到你真实的回答
你还爱我吗　
这是我唯一的牵挂　
不管你会有什么回答
我会一直等你　
你还爱我吗

2009-06-17T08:30:00.003+08:00

1st day of work.
my mind so blank.
is thinking of something.
and hoping for something.

2009-06-16T23:43:00.001+08:00

am gonna start my new job tml.
god bless me.

2009-06-16T01:59:00.001+08:00

after much complaining of no job i was being offered an admin post job but on contract basis.. =(
pay will be low still saded..i need extra time to save for BKK trip..so sad lo..

2009-06-15T14:48:00.000+08:00

it is damn freaking tiring.
last week i was running around for interview didnt even had a good rest.
i suppose to rest 1 week before i wanted to start work but who know there is so many interview to go.
argh~
in the end it was like normal days or worst.
have to rush 2-3 places for interveiw almost everyday and it is so freaking tiring can!
and no1 wanna hire me!!!!!!! that is e most sian part lo..
going for so many interview but no1 wan to hire me.
then my BKK trip HOW HOW HOW!

2009-06-14T23:42:00.000+08:00

had been looking for job and goin for interview till i am super tired..haix

2009-06-10T14:59:00.001+08:00

wee~ looking forward to this sat..
meeting my liping for a shopping trip..
okie window shopping trip..
LOL..
both of us is poor ger okie..
xD
she is saving up for her Miu Miu & i havent even got my job yet so ya we can only do window shopping..hahahahahahaha..

i wanna watch movies~ it had been long since i watch a movie..
this moive caught my eyes~

2009-06-08T14:19:00.000+08:00

cut my hair!!!
look so nerdy eh~ lolx

2009-06-06T01:44:00.001+08:00

exam finally over..now is finding job time..
so sian..i hate finding job..
no ppl wanna hire me..
cause i too lousy le..
sian.........

2009-06-05T12:13:00.000+08:00

doom day in 2hr 46min

2009-06-04T18:34:00.001+08:00

1 paper dwn.
another paper to go.
and it will be tml.
after tml i will be FREE.
but still have to start finding job.

2009-06-03T11:29:00.001+08:00

3.5 hour later.
is my doom day!

2009-06-02T14:02:00.002+08:00

damn.
migraine strike me.
and now i m in pain.
feel so giddy.
holyshiet.

2009-06-02T12:43:00.001+08:00

exam tomorrow~ omg..

2009-05-29T18:57:00.000+08:00

bored~

had been tryin to study but nothing seem to get into my brain.

i need to work 10 times harder from today onwards

2009-05-26T22:04:00.002+08:00

mom still thinking whether she wanna do the operation but eventually she still have to and she still have lots of time to think too..cox she said she only wanna do after my brother PSLE.
talking about PSLE i need to save money to fulfil my brother wish eh. he asked for a crumpler bag. yes it is only $100+++ but i didnt want spoil him by just buying it for him.
i told him only if he can get into Xin Min or Anderson Secondary School express stream then i will buy for him.

2009-05-25T13:22:00.002+08:00

accompanied my mom to SGH for follow up.
doc said my mom back problem had to go for operation if not the problem wouldnt be cure.
mom deciding on which op to take as there is 2. 1 is just insert a small metal plate another is insert metal plate & put screw.
doc advice mom to do the smaller want whereby only need to insert the metal plate but got a friend told me that her mom friend also choose to insert metal plate end up she still have to go and do another 3 op due to the pain. but my friend mom put metal plate + screw and she is very fine now.

we was wondering is that aunty unlucky or because the process didnt go well or is the solution lousy?

2009-05-23T13:54:00.002+08:00

can i have a simple life? simple love?
but can life really get simple?
there is so much ups & dwns.
unpredicted thing happen overnight.
but why my feeling doesnt change?

can i go backpacking?

什么是爱？我想我是不会懂也不想懂。。因为我已经好累好累了。。

2009-05-22T20:43:00.002+08:00

i thought blog suppose to be a place for me to vex out all my feeling.
but yet someone read and violated it by asking me question over question.
stop please. i dont have so much brain cell to tel u.
i just want to blog out my feeling my stress.
i used to tell you i am someone simple but if you cant accept the fact that i am someone simple then get out.

2009-05-22T20:05:00.002+08:00

i know some people will read my blog.
but i still have to say suddenly i miss him alot. and i hope the him himself know who i am talking about
haix..

-
if u still treat mi like a friend DONT ASK ANY QUESTION

2009-05-21T17:17:00.002+08:00

my life today is sleep, msn and sms.
i hate the feeling of being sick.

i m craving for sushi n sashimi.

2009-05-21T11:48:00.001+08:00

i m sick.
damn it
fever · sore throat · bodyache · nose block · ulcer · cough · tummyache

2009-05-20T01:52:00.000+08:00

exam coming soon. have to study! peep give me the power to study pls!

2009-05-19T20:18:00.000+08:00

B
O
R
E
D

2009-05-19T16:12:00.001+08:00

today mr tan ask me if he n jimmy drop into the water who would i save? well i will save none of them. so please and learn how to swim. i have no obilige to save any1 from drowning when i myself is gonna get bury ALIVE by my stress.

stop giving my anymore stress. stop making me to hate u.

2009-05-19T01:19:00.001+08:00

I M TIRED PLEASE LEAVE ME ALONE

2009-05-18T16:53:00.001+08:00

argh. try to study but nth seem to get into my brain. i wan to pass! so i will try to force myself to study. i feel moody eh. haix

2009-05-18T14:03:00.004+08:00

my exam docket still havent arrive yet so when to check online.

exam date is on 3 jun o9 & 5 jun o9 both start @ 3pm, 2 hour paper.

3 jun o9 desk no. is 7660 [MFA SGP Financial Accounting] - ACJC

5 jun o9 desk no. is 7500 [MMA Management Accounting] - RJC

2009-05-17T04:04:00.004+08:00

ur sms for me is getting lesser and lesser. use to be i sms u u will replied. now is 1day abt 2replied. somehow when i tik back. that is how u treat her when she wanted to get back to you. r u trying to hint me something? or it is already so obvious that i still dont get your hint? r u hinting me to go awy. r u hinting mi to leave u alone. my heart feel so pain. i can only pray hard for u hoping that you are alright. hoping that everything is not against ur wish. hoping that whatever goodwill will fall on u. hoping that bad luck will leave u asap and good luck to come soon. and. pray hard that ur chio bu future gf will appear soon. =)

2009-05-16T13:14:00.002+08:00

went for my 1st ever Fortune Telling with friends. This lady FT was intro by Liping as she went and said quite zhun. and indeed she is quite zhun.

Studies/Career is good.
Love life SUCK.

i forgotten to ask about health =) but i guess my health should not be a problem ba cause she never mention about my health will be bad or because i didnt ask she forgotten to tell me?
i did ask whether i can do bix anot but she say no. i can only work for ppl but career will be a good want. especially IF by age 3o i m still single or not marry i will not be marry anymore. her reading shock me la..cause i really got the thinking if by 3o i m not marry then i wont wan to marry anymore.

love life wise i wont say so much because i already have some one in my heart. but 1 thing she told me that those born in the year of Tiger (1986 younger den mi lo =.=) will be the best partnes for mi. follow by horse or goat. BUT NONE I M INTERESTED IN LA.
she mention that once i fall in love with some1, i m those seriously love them with all my heart i wont cheat on them is like loyal to them. i admit yes i am. even no matter how bad my bf treat mi if i can tolerate i will but until the date i cant mean i will let go liao. and once i let go mean the r/s is dead.

i did ask will i pass my exam she said yes leh..but i doubt so la..i didnt even have e mood to study lo..i onli read tru 1 chapter..i hope i can have more concentration sia. mayb if he come back to me i will? lOlx.. haix..was jux kidding la..i m not meant for him. his another half is some1 way better then mi.

anyway i know all these can only be taken as advice so peep dont worry i will take everything as advice onli =)

2009-05-16T01:50:00.001+08:00

"BECAUSE I'M A GIRL" by: Kiss
Version English

I just can't understand the ways
Of all the men and their mistakes
You give them all your heart
And then they rip it all away

You told me how much you loved me
And how our love was meant to be
And I believed in you
I thought that you would set me free

(REFRAIN):
You should've just told me the truth
That I wasn't the girl for you
Still, I didn't have a clue
So my heart depended on you, whoa

(CHORUS):
Although I'll say I hate you now
Though I'll shout and curse you out
I'll always have love for you
Because I am a girl

Been told a man will leave you cold
Get sick of you and bored
I know that it's no lie
I gave my all, still I just cry

Never again will I be fooled
To give my all when nothing's true
I won't be played again
But I will fall in love again

(REFRAIN)

(CHORUS)

I loved you so
Now you leave me in the cold
How could this be
I thought that you'd only love me

Into the night
I will pray that you're alright
You hurt me so
I just can't let you go

You took advantage of my willingness
To do anything for love
Now I'm the only one in pain
Will you please take it all away

Never thought being born a girl
How I can love you and be burned
And now I will build a wall
To never get torn again

(CHORUS) [2x]

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY DEAR LIPING

2009-05-15T23:47:00.000+08:00

Happy Birthday to you~
Happy Birthday to you~
Happy Birthday to Liping~~~~~~~~
Happy Birthday to you~

May all your wish come true and that idiot lucy treat you good! and hope you will get your desire present from him!!

2009-05-15T11:39:00.003+08:00

i m wondering can we really understand/get to know each other better after becoming back like fren? OR will ur feeling towrds mi/love/like/tis relationship fade? cox i realise tt we no longer as close as b4 *as in b4 we r tgt*, we r like stranger now..our sms is not like b4 so kiddo/childish/disturbing each other..nv go out in grp / nv go drink in grp anymore. is u trying to avoid me or i m avoiding u?
Can we dont avoid each other? OR do i have to leave u alone for sometime for you to think?

2009-05-15T04:54:00.004+08:00

still thinking of him and tt is for sure. all i can say is i m sorry and i will change if there is a chance.

cant slp. i try to walk home again today. after walking home the feeling is great.

keep wanting to sms him. bug him with sms like i normally do. but when i take out my hp i just dare not send out any sms ended up deleted all away. i off my hp to silent. afraid of hearing the sms tone. when sms comes in alway hope is him but i know it is impossible.

i should not had been persistent. i should let you have a space to breathe all this i know i am wrong and willing to change but it is too late cause you are no longer there.

will try to study for my exam. am going for FT. hope the reading will be a good want.

石欣卉 - 无能为力

2009-05-14T15:30:00.003+08:00

石欣卉 - 无能为力

原曲:Kim Ki Bum
原词:Hwang Sung Jin
改编词:石欣卉

风空洞吹过一年又这么过
思念独舞成旋涡
雪失魂飘落明年该怎么过
思念撑不过寒冬

承诺太沉重你背不到最后
任凭我独自坠落
是我太执着就像那残留的灼火
微微弱弱颤抖

用所有爱过的回忆原谅着你
恨自己不能把过去放弃
此刻我却无能为力
我们的爱变成我自己的悲剧

干枯的眼眸留下一道裂缝
掩饰不了的伤口
荒凉的北风一阵阵刺进我胸口
拒绝着我的痛

用所有爱过的回忆原谅着你
恨自己不能把过去放弃
此刻我却无能为力
我们的爱变成我自己的悲剧

无法忘记无法痊愈
我越是清醒越怕失去你
怪我太任性只盼时间将伤痕抹去
恨你我无能为力

用所有爱过的回忆原谅你
恨自己不能把过去放弃
你和谁创造新回忆
我一个人的悲剧不奢求你感激

用所有爱过的回忆原谅着你
恨自己不能把过去放弃
此刻我却无能为力
我们的爱变成我自己的悲剧

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msg from liping to mi

何谓公平？何谓不公平？
爱情并非物品，它无法用秤来衡量。
要是你决定全心全意地付出，就不要在乎你能拿回多少。
能为你爱的人付出，是一件幸福的事。
因为在这世界上有个值得你为他付出的人

=(

2009-05-14T12:44:00.004+08:00

i m trying hard to concentrate on my studying but cannot..si bei sian..
when sms come in how i wish is him but i know it wont be him..

time pass so slow for mi..

=(

2009-05-14T00:43:00.005+08:00

1st nite w/o him i feel so weird..i took out my hp wanting to msg him but i stop..i cant keep bugging him am i right..

wonder how is he..is he fine..

i hate e feeling of missing some1

原来我真的不是你的唯一…

2009-05-13T15:42:00.007+08:00

my story end @ 3.15pm.

i have to brace up..

*pat myself*

nite out~

2009-05-13T01:48:00.007+08:00

met up with jian wen for dinner and then accompany him to meet his judo khakis..1 of them was faizal which i know la..cox neighbouring class ma..rest i seen b4 but duno who r they..lOl..all mistaken me as jian wen's gf.. -.-"" but he did tel them i m not..

before meeting his judo clique we went to fightwork to find faizal as i wanted to c how muay thai work..wanted to learn la..but den faizal had alrdy finish his wrk by e time we go..tt is y e last min. meet up with his judo khakis..

AND I SAW VINTAGE LIFT @ FIGHTWORK!! xD

my favourite - mutton soup..haha

the vintage lift!!

liping asked me can i really accept my guy to drink & smoke regularly as in long term thingy?
this question really hit me hard. can i really accept the fact that my guy is out drinking with his fren everyday and is in long term basis..or shld i ask him to smoke & drink lesser? but even if i do ask him to smoke & drink lesser can he promise? i dont want to have any broken promises from him.
but 1 thing i know is from the way he smoke & drink i know asking him to quit is hard but asking him to lessen down also might be a problem.
i m lost..i guess i shld have at least think of this problem 1st am i rite?
I realise yes i can accpet as long as he dont leave me.

i m sick! hahahaha

2009-05-12T18:12:00.003+08:00

wake up @ 9am in the morning wanna continue making Part 2 of my chocolate truffle but was having migraine so took my migraine medic and went back to slp, wake up @ 11am but still wasnt feeling well..so decided to go c doc since my migraine medic is running out + i recently had 3 asthma attack so went to take the inhaler..

reach polyclinic and was asked to fill a form, cough & flu will have to go to the Red Zone..haha which mean it will be faster then normal la but i have to wear a mask *fugging ugly*!!! all thanks to swine flu eh..

waited for less then 30min then my turn liao..wahahahahaha..

after e whole consultation total damage was $18.40..and i have to take alot of medication in the mrng.. =( all thanks to the asthma and i have to go back for follow up 2 days later.. =(

THIS IS WHAT I CANNOT TAKE IT..6 TABLET EVERY MORNING

*yaWn~

2009-05-11T13:39:00.003+08:00

so tired..i had chalet from Fri nite till Sun mrng..den after that i only had 2hour of rest then i went over to my xiao yi hse for mothers' day celebration liao..dun even have enough of slp lo.. =(

falling sick soon so i have to drink plenty of water cox i dun1 to fall sick! and i had asthma attack recently damn it..need to get inhaler liao..if not got ppl will nag..tsk tsk tsk..

exam coming soon so bored lo..need to study haix..

----------
Mr Tan Kok Siong can you kindly get out of my life? I treating u as a friend but you alway making mi feel agitated..keep bringing up the past and said..if you dont know how to treasure me please leave me alone and not keep wanting to patch when u said u understand and want to giv up remain as friend..but next moment you are giving me more problem..u know u only making me hate u more n more..

my life is good now..i dont need u back..i have some1 who know how to love me..

happy~

2009-05-07T01:01:00.003+08:00

haha i m a happy ger now..lolx too old to b call ger..erm..happy young aunty now..

past few days was quite emo and luckily there is ppl around me giving me advice and i m a happy person now.. =))

i cleared out most of my tot now and now i need to overcome my fear.. =))

♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

met tim for dinner just now @ Suki Sushi, AMK..Eileen n Felicia joined us..

but i can said the standard of Suki Sushi @ AMK SUCKS!! worst experience i ever had with suki sushi i mean i know their sushi price is the cheapest but i never encounter such a lousy service + food @ any other outlet. it wasnt even to closing yet and the food all look so not fresh!!

after sushi accompany tim to source for new fan wahahahaha cox e fan in his room cannot make it liao la..can "scrap" soon..i tik donate out also no ppl want de la.. =x

eventually he bought a super powerful fan frm NTUC eh..lOlx..u know those funeral kind of fan

something like tt..lolxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

i saw lightning flashing out of my window..omg..i super afraid can..later thunder i sure cry de lo..ok la call mi crybaby but i m afraid of thunder since young..bo pian de..retard is like tt..this wan scare tt wan scare..hahahahaha..

hmmmmm..having chalet this weekend but will b a boring chalet..bcox cant slp! i wanted to swim de lo..but my aunty visit my at the wrong time la..damn it..nvm i shall swim someday!!

shall date felicia to sentosa..see yandao..suntan..soak inside e sea water..swim abit..LOLXXX..

Doggies~~~

2009-05-06T16:09:00.008+08:00

i want to have a dog!

but my mom say if i bring a dog back home she wanna cook the dog and serve it as curry..so sad..but these dogs really is cute!!

♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

i like xiaxue doggy so cute

*source from www.xiaxue.blogspot.com*

♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

*source from http://www.gotpetsonline.com*

TeaCup Poodle
The Teacup Poodle is an unofficial size variation of the Poodle. They are in reality, Toy Poodles, but are smaller in size than the AKC (American Kennel Club) Toy Poodle standard. Breeders are purposely breeding them accordingly. Teacups are common in the states. They tend to be 9 inches and smaller, and under 6 pounds in weight. The Teacup Poodle is just a name given to very small Poodles by breeders, and therefore, there is no universal standard for those who are breeding them.

Facts
Stands less than 9 inchs.
Weighs around 4 pounds.
Common to live up to 15 years.
Has very little body fat.
Sheds very little.

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*source from http://www.flickr.com/photos/canineddogpictures/3130722353/*

*source from http://www.flickr.com/photos/airlambo23/3014509215/*

Toy Poodle
The Toy Poodle is an elegant, lively, small dog with a profuse, but well-groomed and clipped curly coat. The ears are long, flat and wide, laying close to the head. The head is long with dark, almond-shaped eyes that have an alert expression. The skull is a bit rounded, with a slight stop. The teeth should have a scissors bite. A good Poodle has a square silhouette, with approximately the same overall length as the height at the withers. The level top line has a slight depression behind the withers. The feet are small, oval and webbed, with arched toes. Dewclaws generally are removed. The tail is docked to produce a balanced dog. The coat may be groomed into three basic styles: the "pet clip" (or puppy clip), with relatively short hair all over the body, the "English saddle" clip, and the "Continental" clip with the rear half of the body shaved, bracelets left around the ankles, and pom-poms left on the tails and hips. All solid colors are permissible. The Poodle has a delightful springy gait.

Height / Weight
Height: up to 10 inches (25.4 cm.)Weight: 6-9 pounds (3-4 kg.)
The sizes of the official AKC recognized Poodle breeds are determined by height, not by the weight. The Toy Poodle is 10 inches or under at the highest point of the shoulders. Any Poodle which is more than 10 inches at the highest point of the shoulders cannot compete in the AKC show ring as a Toy Poodle.

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*source from http://www.flickr.com/photos/fairygardener/3338895938/*

*source from http://www.flickr.com/photos/92109105@N00/1766398438/*

Teacup Chihuahua
The Teacup Chihuahua has become very popular around the United States; even though, the AKC has not classified as an official bread.

Facts
Stands less than 6-9 inches.
Weighs between 2-6 pounds
Common to live 12-15 years
Unofficial classification at A.K.C.
Variety of sizes, colors, coats.

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Chihuahua/Facts
Breed standards for this dog do not generally specify a height, only a weight and a description of their overall proportions. As a result, height varies more than within many other breeds. Generally, the height ranges between 6 and 10 inches (15 to 25 cm) at the withers. However, some dogs grow as tall as 12 to 15 inches (30 to 35 cm).

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TeaCup Maltese
A Teacup Maltese is a small, white dog that belongs to the toy group. It is an ancient breed that has long been associated with the island of Malta.

While Teacup Maltese do not shed, they are covered from head to foot with a mantle of long, silky, white hair. The coats require regular grooming in order to prevent matting. This is also why many owners will keep their Maltese clipped at around 1 to 2 inches all over. These dogs do not have an undercoat and, although not desirable, they may have cream or light lemon ears. Their skull is slightly rounded, their tongues are extremely long and their nose is black but it can fade in the winter due to a lack of sun, thus causing it to become pink or light brown in color. They have a compact body wherein their length equals their height. The Teacup Maltese have drop ears with long hair and very dark eyes that is surrounded by darker skin pigmentation that looks like a halo. This is also what gives the Teacup Maltese its expressive look. As an adult, a Teacup Maltese can range from 3 to 10 pounds. The American Kennel Club calls for a weight that is between 4 and pounds and no more than 7 pounds.

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TeaCup Yorkies
Teacup Yorkies are known by many different names, including miniature yorkie and toy. Unfortunately, this means that there is no standard definition for what a Teacup Yorkie is. However, if you are purchasing one as a puppy, you should expect that it will only grow to be around 6 pounds but you can find ones that will only grow to be around 2 to 3 pounds. This is why you need to make sure that whenever you are purchasing a Teacup Yorkie they are the specific size that you are looking for.

sian

2009-05-03T19:48:00.001+08:00

quite a few things happen recently..

am i the creator of these things? did i bring bad luck to those ppl involve?

can anyone tel me what shall i do?

i realise i actually can live without him

2009-05-01T16:20:00.001+08:00

i think this song suit me and SIO..haha..

明天以后歌词

泳:在你的记忆里面有一个我.在你最痛苦的时候陪你渡过,难过过了,天晴朗了,我就走

峰:你拯救我的寂寞,我的痛,我的梦,在你的面前,我不必保留,还来不及对你说,迟到
的我的心动.
泳:你的好,你的坏. 峰:我的脾气你最懂.
泳(峰):我不要你来心疼我(我不要你离开我).
泳.峰:明天的以后,我们会懂,失恋的挫折让人变更成熟.
泳:我对你感觉胜过爱情.
峰:因为有你,给我勇气,给我(泳.峰)用不完的运气.
峰:其实也想好好爱你
泳(峰):只怕到最后不小心让你伤心(我不怕会伤心).
泳峰:对不起,我对你再好再亲密都不能在一起.
峰:最后看你在别人怀里,
泳(峰):有天我会找到我的唯一(我并不是你的唯一).
泳.峰:还微笑祝福你.
~间奏
峰:你拯救我的寂寞,我的痛,我的梦,在你的面前,我不必保留.
泳:我从来没对你说,压抑的我的心动.
峰:我的好,我的坏.我的脾气你最懂.
泳:我不要你来心疼我
泳.峰:明天的以后,我们会懂,失恋的挫折让人变更成熟.
泳:我对你感觉胜过爱情.
峰:因为有你,给我勇气,给我(泳.峰)用不完的运气.
峰:其实也想好好爱你
泳(峰):只怕到最后不小心让你伤心(我不怕会伤心).
泳峰:对不起,我对你再好再亲密都不能在一起.
峰:最后看你在别人怀里,
泳(峰):有天我会找到我的唯一(我并不是你的唯一).
泳.峰:还微笑祝福你.啊~~喔~~呜~~
泳:爱情总让人折磨,
峰:所以我们才选择(泳峰)做比情人更好的朋友.
泳:我对你感觉胜过爱情.
峰:因为有你,给我勇气,给我(泳.峰)用不完的运气.
峰:其实也想好好爱你
泳(峰):只怕到最后不小心让你伤心(我不怕会伤心).
泳峰:对不起,我对你再好再亲密都不能在一起.
峰:最后看你在别人怀里,
泳(峰):有天我会找到我的唯一(我并不是你的唯一).
泳.峰:还微笑祝福你.

=)

2009-04-30T13:52:00.003+08:00

今天是四月三十日。。是我离开他的第十九天。。我过得很好。。我已经习惯没有他的日子，我很喜欢我现在的生活。。

i realise no matter how much i love some1 i still cant accept the hurt he had given me..maybe my determination to stay on isnt strong enough but i do really love him. the hurt he gave me is enough to make me give up on just 1 day. yes i do feel sad but sorry i feel so hurt to carry on this relationship.

i do hope that he can have a better life cause i m sure i cant be together with him again. i cant forget the hurt he gave me i cant overcome my fear for him. i only can treat him as friend now. i feel heartpain when i see him not because i still want to be with him but is because i am sorry that i have made his life upside down due to my leave..i feel guilty to b exact.

tan kok siong, i am sorry that i have hurt you but i dont wanna get hurt anymore.

i realise yesterday actually i m hurting more then 1 person. a ger..shall not disclose too much..those who is close to me will know..

boring~

2009-04-29T14:55:00.002+08:00

was so boring i went to look up what is the difference between Perfume and toilette and here is what i had goggle~~

What is the difference between Pure Perfume, Eau de Parfum, Eau de Toilette, and Eau de Cologne?
The differences are simply a matter of the amount or concentration of oils in the fragrance. The highest concentration is in pure perfume (or parfum). Next would be Eau de Parfum (EDP), then Eau de Toilette (EDT), and finally Eau de Cologne. Some manufacturers make a solid perfume, solid perfume is as strong as a pure perfume however it is in a gel-like consistency. Eau De Toilette and Eau De Cologne are generally interchangeable, especially in Men's fragrances.

After Shave has the least amount of oils. The higher the concentration the longer your fragrance will last, and the less you need to apply.

叶子的离开，是因为风的追求，还是树的不挽留

2009-04-28T16:06:00.002+08:00

「叶子的离开，是因为风的追求，还是树的不挽留。」
倘若你爱上一个人，
千万别装作无所谓毫不在乎...
错过了，就没有了....
爱情，玩不起心理战的.......

~~树~~
高中三年交过五个女朋友，有一个女孩子，我很爱她，却迟迟不敢追，她没有美丽的面孔，
没有姣好的身材，没有撩人的魅力，一个再平凡不过的女孩子。我喜欢她，真的真的很喜欢她，
喜欢她的单纯，她的直率，她的可爱，她的脆弱。

不追她的原因，也许是潜意识觉得平凡如她配不上我；也许是因为怕在一起后，一切好感都会消失；
也许是怕外人的指指点点伤害了她；也许是觉得，她会是我的，不急着为了她而放弃一切。

最后这个原因，让她陪了我三年，让她看着我和别的女孩子厮混了三年，让她心痛了三年。

她很想当一个好演员，但我却像一个严苛的导演。我和第二个女朋友在厕所接吻，被她撞见，
她尴尬的笑笑说：「Go on！」然后跑掉，第二天，她眼睛肿得像核桃一样，我故意不去猜想是谁让她哭成这样，
嘲笑了她一天，她在所有人都回家后，在教室哭了起来，她不知道练球回来拿东西的我，看了她一个多小时。

我的第四个女朋友，一直很不喜欢她，有次她们两个吵了起来，我知道依她的个性不会去惹事，
但我还是护着女朋友，她被我吼了一下后，愣住，眼泪滑了下来，我无视她的眼泪，陪女友走出教室，
第二天，她依旧嘻嘻哈哈的和我开玩笑，我知道她很难过，但她不会知道我的心不比她好受。

当我和第五个女朋友分手时，我约她出去玩，玩了一天，我对她说：「我有事要对妳说。」
她说：「真巧，我也有事要对你说。」「我和她分手了。」「我和他在一起了。」我知道「他」是谁，
他追她也有一阵子了，是个蛮可爱的男孩子，活泼有趣，充满了热情，追她追得满城风雨。
我不能表现自己的心痛，只能笑笑地恭喜她，但当我回到家，心中的痛楚强烈得令我无法承受，
像有个千斤重的石头压在我胸口，我无法呼吸，想大叫却叫不出来，眼泪竟然滑了下来，我掩面大哭，
多少次，我也看着她为了那个不愿承认的人掩面大哭。

毕业典礼时，我在手机上发现了一封简讯，这是十天前，我掩面大哭时传来的，只是我一直没有去开过机。
「叶子的离开，是因为风的追求，还是树的不挽留。」

~~叶子~~
高中时，喜欢搜集叶子，why？因为我觉得，一片叶子要离开它长期依赖的树好勇敢哩！

高中三年，我和一个男孩子很好，不算男女朋友那种好，是好朋友那种好，但是，在他交第一个女朋友时，
我学会了一种不该有的感觉，吃醋，心中的酸，不是一颗柠檬可以比喻，那就像是100颗臭酸的柠檬，酸到不行，
他们只在一起两个月，当他们分手，我还得掩饰自己心中强烈的喜悦，但是一个月后，他和另一个女孩子在一起。
我喜欢他，也知道他喜欢我，可是，他为什么总是不追我呢？明明喜欢彼此，为什么不行动？
每当他交一个女朋友，我就心痛一次，一次又一次的打击，让我不禁怀疑，是我一厢情愿吗？不爱我，
为什么要对我那么好？他对我的好，已经不是普通朋友可以做到。喜欢一个人，好难过，我可以清楚的知道他的喜好，
他的习惯，唯独他对我的感觉，我猜不透，难道要我这个女孩子去开口吗？
尽管如此，我还是想在他身边，关心他，陪他，爱他，也许算是一种等待的行为，等待他回来爱我，
就像每天晚上等他的电话，等他的简讯，我知道，就算他再忙，也会拨出一些时间给我。这样的等待，
陪了我三年，等待是难熬的，是令人想放弃的，但等到的那一剎那，让人第二天会继续等下去。这样的煎熬，
这样的痛苦，这样的幸福，这样的矛盾，陪了我三年。
直到三年级下学期，高二一个学弟喜欢上我，每天的热情追求，令我从一开始的拒绝，
渐渐愿意挪出我心房的一些位置给他。他像一阵温柔而持久的风，撩拨我这片摇摇欲坠的叶子，
到最后，我发现我已经不想只留一点点的位置给这阵风，我知道这阵风，会带我这片伤痕累累的叶子，到更幸福的地方。
于是我离开了树，树只是笑笑，没有挽留。
「叶子的离开，是因为风的追求，还是树的不挽留。」

~~风~~
因为我喜欢的女孩子叫叶子，因为她有一棵令她依恋的树，所以我要当一阵风，一阵呵护她的风。

第一次看见她，是高二我转来一个月后的事，个子小小的她坐在球场旁，一双眼凝视着同和我在球场的学长，
每天的社团时间，她总会坐在那里，一个人，和朋友，她的眼光依旧凝视着他，当他和女孩子打打闹闹，她的眼中有泪，
当他看向她，她的眼中有笑。看她成了我的习惯，就像她爱看他。

有一天她没来，我心中没来由的焦虑与不安，我无法解释那种感觉，除了不安，还是不安，而且那学长竟然也不在。
我冲去他们教室，躲在外面，看着学长骂她，她的眼泪，他的离去。

第二天，她依旧坐在场边，看着他，我走过去，对她笑一笑，拿了张纸条给她，她先是惊讶的看着我，然后笑笑地收下。

隔天，她拿着纸条出现在我面前，然后离开。
「叶子的心太沉重，风吹不动。」

不是叶子的心太沉重，是叶子根本就不想离开树。」
我回给她这段话后，她渐渐会和我说话，收我的礼物，接我的电话。我知道她喜欢的不是我但我还是有毅力一定要让她喜欢上我，四个月内我告白了不下20次，每一次她都转移话题，但我还是不会放弃，
我决定要的人，我就一定会给它追过来！

一直到不知道第几次的告白，出了口，虽然知道她一定会又说到别的事，但还是有一丝丝希望她的答应，
没想到她都不说话，「妳在干嘛？怎么不说话？」我对着话筒说。「我在点头。」「啊？」我不敢相信自己的耳朵。
「我在点头！」她大声叫。
我甩掉电话，匆匆披上一件衣服，上了机车，冲去她们家按门铃，当她开门的那一剎那，紧紧抱住她。
「叶子的离开，是因为风的追求，还是树的不挽留。」

slacking @ home~

2009-04-27T16:39:00.002+08:00

this week is the last week of my class liao..no more nite class~~ as i had enrol my revision class in the noon..nite time will b chilling session for mi~~~~

2 more classes to go Tue & Thurs..and then doom day is coming real soon..haha exam on e 1st wed and fri of june..i must really start mocking liao~

F2 revision class commerce on
6 may o9 2pm - 5.45pm
13 may o9 2pm - 5.45pm
20 may o9 2pm - 5.45pm
27 may o9 2pm - 5.45pm

F3 revision class commerce on
5 may o9 2pm - 5.45pm
12 may o9 2pm - 5.45pm
19 may o9 2pm - 5.45pm
26 may o9 2pm - 5.45pm

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feel like goin genting after exam but not sure yet..and i have to start sourcing for full time job le..decided to work full time and slowly do my studies part time..i wan money!! lolx...

lololo

2009-04-27T01:58:00.002+08:00

i love this cap but it dont belong to mi~ haha any kind soul wanna buy for mi? LOL
FROM ARMANI EXCHANGE DE!! =x

today had an advance mothers' day celebration @ amk Mellben Seafood, cant rmb what block liao la..hahahahahahahahaha..hmmm..i didnt really eat much la..cox i dun have good appetite this few weeks..

waiting for fathers' day celebration dont know where we are goin to eat this time round..

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days without him i feel so relief and happy..feeling contented..

but i dont know how to tel him i dont wanna patch anymore because i dont wanna suffer again..so what if he say he can change..he had been telling me this so often till my heart die..and i met him last thurs..i totally feel no changes..he is still expecting mi to do everything for him..

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i am craving for sushi~~~~~~

2009-04-24T15:25:00.002+08:00

oh man i had been chilling out everyday lo..wahahahaha..but mom nv really nag so it is fine la..

so sian ar..no wrk but i m trying to studying la..exam coming i wanna pass!!

and i wan to go genting..any1 wanna go with mi

=D

2009-04-22T15:40:00.001+08:00

hahahahahahahahahahahahahaha...
i pack half way and is too lazy to pack..shall continue tml..

2009-04-22T11:03:00.002+08:00

LIPING WAS SO SURPRISE THAT I WAKE UP EARLY!!!

i think soon i will look like 30ish..because everyday slp late but wake up early..i dont wanna do tt but it is just automatic de lo..so sian..

haha ytd went O bar again with e usual drinker..

today will be my room packing day!!! hahaha my room look like it just got an earthquake sia...

=)

2009-04-19T05:58:00.004+08:00

i miss my lappy + hp..
saded..duno when den i can c them sia..

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jux got back frm prawning..wahahahaha i tik mom will kill mi la..tis few days keep coming back EARLY..early in e mrng de EARLY.. no pic wahahahaha..

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tdy i m damn hurt by him yes again..i wonder how long more he wanna hurt mi sia..damn idiot..at 1st i tot of giving him a chance after sometime but he bug mi for ans n chance daily..soon it irritate mi..den he now tryin to sound ke lian and sort of blaming mi for not givin him a chance to change..i told him i giv him lots of time liao cox if i nv giv him chance i wont even go back to him when we alwy quarrel till break..for the past 5yrs whenever we quarrel and den he say break i m heart broken..i cry n beg him to take mi back..n he tik is him who is givin mi a chance to go back but haix..if i dun1 to giv him chance i shall jux walk out of his life wat y still cry n beg him to take mi back..damn fucking sian..i told him tt..y he wan to hurt mi again n again..

2009-04-18T05:06:00.002+08:00

=)

jux back from chilling out with Tim and company~..had fun~~

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he came over to find mi this evening he cry and ask for forgiveness..mayb i dun love him anymore? cox i dun feel a thing when i c him cry..or is it bcox i myself had been hurt too deep and had no longer feel sympathy toward him?

giv me sometimes to have fun and think about it ba..for time being i m very contented with my life..

BUT of cox i still hate my job cox the ppl there r inhuman..i was coughing badly when bitch M was teaching mi sometime when i sudden feel choke and cant breathe SHE STARE at mi and say can u dun b rude pay attention to mi when i talk..POWER LA..den at another pt of time when i suddenly feel "coughy" i jux start coughing endlessly she say CAN U USE A TISSUE TO COVER UR MOUTH DUN SPREAD THE GERMS TO OTHERS..

oh my tian..do u knw i m using my hand to cover my mouth when i cough!!!!

biggest shock of my life..

2009-04-13T21:16:00.002+08:00

i had a huge shock today..

sio keep wanting to patch but i really scare liao..
and i tel him my fear bcox of wat happen..
e past tt he use to start a quarrel den break den i will b crying like hell and asking him to take mi back..i told him i had been fear by all this..he told mi tis is a way to MAINTAIN the r/s..

it left mi n few frens speechless..

he even told mi tt he regretted once 8yrs+ ago cox he giv up on mi n i accept another guy..so he dun wanna regret again..but it was like OH SO DUMB..i did went back to u 5yrs ago but u nv treasure mi n yet u say u dun1 to regret and want to cherish mi..but all these 5yrs he had been doing nth but only hurting mi.. =`(

i have been sobbing secretly when every1 fall aslp..i alwy slp less den 6hr a day or even worst..on sat it was onli 2hr..ytd 4hr..i wonder can i slp tdy? i took an hour on nap tdy but is cry till slp..i tik my pillow gonna turn into water pillow soon..

2009-04-13T02:33:00.002+08:00

i dedicated tis song to Penguin b4 but now i m goin to dedicate tis song back to myself:

你没想像中爱我《一切完美》主题曲

词：石欣卉
曲：So Million

你小心翼翼牵我手
其实是担忧藏不住我
自尊也投降活在她之下
我好傻

你字字句句说你不爱她
那又是什么让你害怕
我疑惑但是原谅因为你留下
我好傻

不是我不说就不在意空等候
原来你没想像中那么爱我
我不懂该拿什么安慰我的难受
你的存在让我更寂寞

你寸步不离像天使的她
挥霍我的爱从不放心上
我有一丝无奈也有一些明白
该放开

不是我不说就不在意空等候
原来你没想像中那么爱我
我不能再从你的怀抱感觉到什么
不爱我别再说假装爱那是撒盐在伤口

啊... 谁说我不在意空等候
原来你从来都没深刻爱我
我才懂不是我不心痛
其实是心没了感受

呜... ...

你没想像中爱我

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突然间。。我发现我就好像歌词里的男主角。。

原来我没想像中那么爱他。。

不知道是已经不再爱了吗？还是爱到累了呢？我真的好像放手。。

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i am so tired

2009-04-09T01:21:00.004+08:00

爱情好像在喝茶~
有些人是茶包。。泡的越久就变得淡而无味。。
有些人是茶叶。。泡的越久就变得浓而好喝。。
你的爱情是茶叶还是茶包呢?
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after my OT suddenly i have e urge to go east coast..board a cab and head there..found myself a place to sit, at first it was about to drizzle but i still stay on anyway..

the breeze and wave made me feel warmth~ i use to frequent there 5-6yrs ago..i grow up by the sea..i fall in love with the sea side when i was just a toodler..i love "riding" on my dog, running along the water, splashing water on the dog or whoever is there to take care of mi..

when i grow up i still love the sea and i still love going to the seaside..i love the breeze there i love hearing the splashing notes of the wave i love walking along beach with water splashing on my feet..

but it had been so many years tt i really had gone there to enjoy..SIO dont like the sea dont like the sun..

i miss the days when i frequent to east coast for the breeze or wave..i really do..

ytd some1 told me that i shld really re-condsider my r/s with him..actually i knw this problem long time ago but i really dont know what is holding me back..i really dont know so ppl pls dun ask mi..

i told liping she is the tea leave and lucy is the tea bag..liping reply was funny but i knw how she feel..
*haha can i jux be the HOT water?*

just now i think of my er jiu i ask y god is so unfair to him? His eldest son, my cousin was about to turn 21 tis yr only..he hasnt even see my 3 cousin to get marry..
only bad ppl can live long but good ppl alwy die young..
*nxt time i sure die very late cox i m a evil LinG =x*

anyway Tim the 猪went to east coast to find mi.. -.-" 都说是猪了..can go home rest dont want to go home rest..tsk tsk tsk tsk.........

actually ytd i went east coast once le but the mood is diff tis time round..nt sad nt dwn nt mood-less nt moody nt really is stress..

but is calm..i go there with an empty mind to fill the image on the sea and to collect some "music" created by mother nature..that is what i want~

i want lots of seaside visiting!!!!!!!!!!

haha 1stly i tik i have to go take my advance theory AGAIN and then PUSH myself to learn class 3 haha but firstly i need to have a job first..i wanna buy car~~~ so i can go east coast as n when i like..

HAHAHAHAHAHA I WANT A MANUAL CAR I DONT WANT AUTO CAR!!!!

okok firstly i have to pass ADVANCE THEORY
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i miss tis place~~~~~

Tim the 猪de car.. 猪ownself take de lo using my hp -.-""
haha actually he was trying out innov8 camera..

*okie la i just being bo liao~~~

i want tis car IN MY DREAM TO BE FRANK:
- http://www.sgcarmart.com/new_cars/newcars_photos.php?CarCode=10464
*i want it in BLACK

hahahahahahaha i wanted a BMW but tt will be when i die ppl burn for mi den will have lo....

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I am actually MISSING Jimmy Ong but not because i like him la..just miss calling him to cry n weep in e middle of the nite when i m dwn..hahahahahahahahahahahahahaha..

=(

2009-04-06T01:16:00.003+08:00

o3-o4-2oo9
tdy had OT till 8.30pm then met up with timothy after work then went over to jln kayu for dinner..

didnt meet SIO as he will need to wrk on Sat & Sun as they r having stock take..

actually days w/o him i m much happier..everybody wan to knw y stupid mi still dun wanna giv up? bcox i dun1 to feel regretted like few years ago..or i shld say wo bu gan xin to let go..called mi stupid called mi idiot called mi retard called mi fuck up..

but who knw..mayb 1 fine day i will wake up my bloody idea and just leave him for good or mayb i will leave this place for good..no one know the future..

o4-o4-o9
heard frm my mom my er jiu was hospitalized and is quite serious..i m praying hard tt he will recovered~ my grandma is so sad..well of cox...cox she had lost her eldest son few years back and now my 2nd uncle is sick..i hope everything will be fine..

o5-o4-o9
tdy miss liping told mi things abt her n mrL..
making mi totally lost hope n confident for guys..but no i will nt say break cox i dun1 to feel regretted like i say and i rather wait for him to break off with mi..

什么是爱？我想我是不会懂也不想懂。。因为我已经好累好累了。。

2009-03-28T14:44:00.003+08:00

Part 1

Part 2

Part 3

I think he fell in love with the long-haired girl after he spent time with her and she liked him too but even tho he loves her he can't go to her b/c the other girl gave him a cornea transplant or something so he's forever indebt to her. That's why even tho he likes the long-haired girl he decides to forget her and the long-haired girl understands this so she lets him go.

Lee Jun Ki - Love story
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pisdk_bW2uM

如果有一天，我必须离开。。请你笑着送我走。。

2009-03-26T00:18:00.002+08:00

如果有一天，我必须离开。。请你笑着送我走。。

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today ms liping tel me she is emo..haha oki i can understand y..
but den i tik if 1 day i have to go pls smile when u r bidding farewell to me...

i still haven finish my report..oh man..hahaha tml i will go rush for it..i feel so lazy nowadays..how i wish i no need wrk e money will drop frm e sky!! *ok dream on~~~~*

12.30am liao..sleeping time..wanted to write a long blog but too lazy liao..lOL...

damn freaking moodless~

2009-03-23T12:45:00.002+08:00

23o32oo9 - DAMN FUCKING MOODLESS

reason: early in the morning when i come into the office i got scolding already. Last week my in charge wasnt here right..but she received complain that i was hogging on the email where by i DIDNT..nvm..e worst part is she is trying to protect whoever complain but useless la..
last week whole office was out of office for Offsite Meeting, and left her 3 gd fren aka e other 3 senior..Senior J (both thurs n fri was here), Senior C (only thurs) n Senior R (only fri), 1 recept, 2 IT..
IT wont complain cox they r sitting AWAY from me and of course my recept fren wont complain too, cox everytime when she walk in i m doing my job not emailing! anyway i didnt alwy email..
who else could it be e either 1 of e senior la..or ALL who know rite..they complain to my in charge and also to e HR but i only got "warning" frm my incharge.. *well i tik more den warning..1st she wrote email to mi say got ppl complain to her i was hogging to e email w/o doing her job. den later she walked over n scolded me..den later keep on nagging again when she come over e 2nd time.*

at tt very moment i feel like crying yes i m useless but sorry tt is my character i cant let ppl accuse..yes i m a crybaby..but i duno hw to express myself i duno hw to tel ppl tt i did not do..

clueless

2009-03-21T00:07:00.002+08:00

i suddenly realise..actually i can be all alone..

liping told me she is scare of lonely as in she need some1 to shop or eat with her IF she is all alone (w/o Mr L)..

i realise i m actually well trained now..i can be all alone now..even if 1 day SIO leave me and Jimmy/Liping/Penguin is no longer there for mi as they will have their very own partner to be with too..

i simply can eat or shop alone..

sometime i ask where is the noisy-nuisance-irritating-talkative chen kailin gone too? i used to be an super irritating ger in sch back den..i make e most noise i guess..i had lots of fren surrounding mi *no shld b i luv to surround ard fren to talk nonsense* and tt is mi..
yes i do talk nonsense now when i met up with fren but well i guess tt is only acting? cox to me i no longer find myself in mi..will i find myself soon? i duno n i dun wish to knw..

i do cherish all my friend even those not so close friend..no worry i treasure all my friend..is just that i m no longer the chen kailin you all once know..i am just a lifeless person..

=(

2009-03-20T23:32:00.002+08:00

so bored..

tis 2 days there is no ppl in e office cox most executive went for offsite meeting @ Pan Pacific and leave @ 5pm for home didnt come back to office...and the whole bloody office only left with Senior J, R (only fri) & Senior C (only thurs), IT manager, 2 IT staff, 1 recept n 1 mi..

but e bloody senior keep peeping on mi and some more ask me do i have job to do..and yes i do have..stop asking mi do i have thing to do..ur good fren Senior M wont let me have a good days anyway..

and Sarah (the financial controller) did call me and say she need my help to stay over a little for some reporting but ended up cancel it..

i had been "struggle" by the report till i cant breathe..i got no1 to guide mi along and there is insufficient infor leave for mi...and guess wat i have to have them rdy by mon..so freaking sian..i have to rush and understand the report this weekend too..cox i simply jux cant finish it tdy..

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anyway i went for the pri sch gathering VERY LAST min. lolx..cox no need OT ma..so jux go lo..well met up with some of the pri sch fren..quite fun actually..shld have more of tis gathering..haha..

=(

2009-03-19T15:55:00.002+08:00

guess what..my in charge tt time keep picking on my pants which had a jeans cutting look..and she insist that tt is a JEANS not a pants..

well tdy e HR director *or was it manager? but my agent told mi is director leh* wore a DEMIN JEANS today to work. out of curiousity IT ger ask the HR are u wearing a jeans? and HR replied with a smile, yes. Maureen say no jeans but e other day i went to look @ company policy it say appropraite office attire nv say no jeans allowed..and if i know how to dress well my jean can look offical too..anyway u jux have to play ard with rule.

to me i think EVERYBODY onli dare to dress "casual" when Senior M is not around la..cox if she ard she sure go round picking @ ppl cox she tik she is e most senior (oldest i can say) so she have e right to lecture ppl..so wat the fuck lo..

haix..

2009-03-15T23:41:00.004+08:00

i dun have any great day last week..sat wasnt feeling so well having cramp whole day..

i nearly break dwn last thurs n say wanna quit..my in charge keep changing her words..n i have to listen to her sarcastic comment..like i so stupid memory so lousy..i realli feel so condemn..

haix..i wanted to blog out wat she did to mi last thurs n fri but my mind feel so restless n tired..i feel so bored..i hope my 2mth faster end..

Just for a laught~

2009-03-15T21:13:00.002+08:00

A TRUE STORY BUT VERY SHOCKING

This is a real story of a young college girl who passed away last month in Pasir Ris.
Her name was Priya. She was hit by a truck.
She was working in a call center.

She had a boy friend named Shankar.
Both of them were true lovers.
They always talked on the phone. You would never find her without handphone.
In fact she also changed her cell connection from M-One to Starhub, so that both of them can be on the same network, and save on the cost.
She used to spend half of the day talking with shankar.

Priya's family knew about their relationship. . Shankar was very close to Priya's family as well. (Just imagine their love) .

Before she passed away she always told her friends 'If I pass away please burn me with my handphone'
she also said the same thing to her parents.
After her death, people cld'nt carry her body,
A lot of them tried to do so,but still can't.
Everyone who was present had tried to carry the body, the results were the same.

Eventually, they called a person known to one of their neighbours, who can speak with the soul of dead person and who was a friend of her father. He took a sti!ck and started speaking to himself slowly.

After a few minutes, he said 'this girl misses something here.'
Then her friends told that person about her intentions to burn her with her phone. He then opened the grave box and place her phone and sim card inside the casket. After that they tried to carry the body. It was then moved easily and they then carried her into the van. All of us were shocked. Priya's parents did not inform Shankar that Priya had passed away.. ?

After 2 weeks Shankar called Priya's mom..... ?
Shankar :.....'Aunty, I'm coming home today. Cook something nice for me. Don't tell Priya that I'm coming home today, I wanna surprise her.'

Her mother replied..... 'You come home first, I wanna tell you something very important.'
After he came, they told him the truth about Priya. Shankar thinks that they were playing a fool. He was laughing and said 'don't try to fool me - tell Priya to come out, i have a gift for her. Please stop this nonsense'.
Then they show him the original death certificate to him. They gave him proof to make him believe.

(Shankar started to sweat) He said... 'Its not true. We spoke yesterday.. She still calls me. Shankar was shaking.

Suddenly, Shankar's phone rang. 'see this is from Priya, see this....' he showed the phone to priya's family. all of them told him to answer. he talked using the loudspeaker mode.

All of them heard his conversation. Loud and clear, no cross lines, no humming. It is the actual voice of Priya & there is no way others could use her sim card since it is nailed inside the grave.

They were so shocked and asked for the same person's (who can speak with the soul of deal persons) help again. He brought his master to solve this matter.
He & his master worked for 5 hours. Then they discovered one thing which really shocked them.... ? ? ? ?

Starhub has the best coverage 'Where ever you go, our network follows!!!'

LOL dun whack mi...tis was extracted from a email sent to mi by a fren~

i need a space to breathe

2009-03-10T00:44:00.004+08:00

seriously i need a space to breathe..not because i m too tied down with my r/s but is tired of my work..

yes i only started working like 1week ago but i seriously bth the 4 senior citizen there..everyday is creating new pattern..showing OFF their true wolfy color.

let's name them Senior J, Senior R, Senior C & Senior M [tis is my in charge]

ytd was monday blue so didnt pen dwn alot of thing..but tdy is more den monday blue..is TUESDAY ORANGY..y FULL OF FIRE~~~

=x

ytd was having migraine pop a medic into my mouth n went to slp hence stopping the entry halfway. and worst of all i didnt have a gd nite slp i will skip e details tot..liping knw wat happen~
anyway i STILL wake up with a migraine but well i pop a medic again n drag myself to wrk..

but wrkin in tt environment with migraine is HELL..i nearly break dwn jux now..being accuse of not listening to instruction WHEN i does and i m sure i did cox i alwy pen dwn watever Senior M wan mi to do. As she had been accusing mi since my 1st day n i cant stand it any longer..
well i finish off n double check my list of job n when i m finished i inform her so that she can check. WHO KNOW she come out with new "rule" n say tis mux b done i ask u to do y didnt u do tt i take out my list n look tru NO I CAN SWEAR TO GOD SHE JOLLY WELL DIDNT MENTION TT FREAKING POINT TO MI.

i told her i dont rmb she saying she rebark back say i got poor memory n need to write them all dwn. i feel fuk up at tt very moment.
i guess she is e 1 with memory problem not mi bcox i had try to locate a few file in different timing. it wasnt in the cabinet it wasnt with my it wasnt with Juliah *my new fren + colleague she is e nicest person in the company* but she insist is with mi or juliah or in the cabinet..i keep saying no no no..she show mi e fustrated face and say go n find again BUT dont have how to find =(
in the end i jux giv up searching..simply dun wanna waste time so continue my filing with other file 1st n keep the invoice for the missing file till it surface later.

and true enough..it surface 1hr later where is it? u mux b curious am i rite? Senior M pass it to mi..she say it is under my table. den jux throw e file on my table n walk awy. during lunch time juliah told mi tt Senior M actually "invade" into her mini pantry behind the recept and dig for the file but to no avail..

and today she again say tt i had a lousy memory pls write dwn e thing she wan mi to do *yes i did but she wont admit tt she nv tel mi she will insist she said b4 but i forget* so she went to get a notebook for mi THROW ON MY TABLE and ask mi take dwn the bloody note..mind u i m having migraine n is alrdy half die but got tis kind of treatment..@ tt very pt of time tears roll inside my eyes..if i m nt strong enough i wont have break dwn n sob den call my agent n say i wanna quit. she even ask mi to find a full time job cox she tik tt my poor memory is due bcox i never work full time. i dont understand what is the diff btw full time n temp or part time. so working full time can train my brain more?

but the problem now is i m doing my studies so i dun wanna stress myself..i mean my mom is nt stressing mi y shld she..and cant i jux wrk temp for time being..at least i can mingle in diff company diff wrk environment diff wrk load and then come to a conclusion what exactly is the kind of post i wanna get into.

i dun wanna go wrk full time den end up wrking for 3-4mths i realise tt is nt e kind of post i want den what..slog slog slog den 1yr later job hoping?

sorry i dun have tt kind of mentality, i dun want thing to b so complicated i jux want simple..

another incident, last week they wanted to bad mouth abt juliah when juliah son was sick and she needed to bring him to the doc and left office @ 5pm (which actually is the offical knock off time for Juliah if there is no more meeting or no more loose paper wrk tt she need to clear..which mean in order words if on tt very day after 5pm there is no more meeting Recept can go off @ 5pm but juliah stay till 6pm daily..but they dun even praise her when she stay till late onli bad mouth her when she leave early..)
*door bell rang 3x* Senior J asked is SHE (juliah) still outside? Senior R *look @ e email den e clock* hmm if she leave straight after e email yes she is gone cox it had been 15min.
*roll eyes, isnt it obvious tt when e door bell ring 3 time mean no recept is outside as usually it onli ring once* Senior C walk out to get the door it turn out to b e dispatch uncle..Senior C walk back to e seat n said aiya tis Juliah ar..Senior R saying sarcasticlly said ppl son sick wat..den Senior J wanted to say something but ended up she say aiya nvm..i guess they can sense tt i m quite close with Juliah hence didnt say much..
but tel u wat..tt very week..all of them oso knock off early at least VERY often. Senior J knock off @ 4.30pm n 3pm respectively on Wed n Thurs, Senior C knock of early @ 4pm 1 of the day but she was 30min late every mrng! Senior R knock off @ 4.30pm EVERYDAY n was late every mrng too..

and today b4 i goin for lunch my e file standing on my table fall off and make some noise..Senior R was so freaking unhappy..she tsk @ mi n stare~ nvm abt it..but when i come back frm wrk I got said by Senior M, she said:
this table dun really have support so dont THROW ur file of the table if it break I DONT THINK U WILL HAVE MONEY TO PAY..

oH ya i m earning onli 7$ per hr nt like u 10 over k a mth..yes 10k+ a mth..cox i was reading true last yr audit file n i saw the payroll thingy..her per annum is 125k per yr not inclusive of bonus yet..bonus is 6.5k *if i rmb correctly but sky high*

oh well so when file fall is i m throwing file on the table la..since the table cant support e file y bother to place the file on top where by i alwy place on the floor but Senior M dun like..is like so wat the fucking hell u want can..

on a side note i wanted to get 13 april off as my mom need go SGH for check up as she had been having her backach for almost A MONTHS..but leave wasnt approve so i might jux go take mC..
my younger sis having 1st day of sch on tt very day..n my da mei leave is actually plan in advance kind so if last min want leave have to c if tt day got ppl wan to exchange with her ma..

i still got to tahan for another 37-38 working days..omg..tt is more den 1 mth..i will try to tahan but i wont bother to extend myself..i dun wanna stress myself working with them during May, when my exam is on June..

*ARGH* tml is wed~ mayb sun meeting my liping go do some shopping..

yes poor ger wan to shop..cannot meh..

BORED~

2009-03-04T21:24:00.002+08:00

new job SUCK..SUCK TO E CORE~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

my in charge was a disgusting old mother fucker..i worn those hard material kind of pants n she insist it is jeans..i told her i jux start working wont have extra $ to buy pants but she insist tt will b my problem not hers. =(

feel so freaking sian..n her way of filing is so funny..she wan latest mth below.. -.-" i have difficulties trying to file sia..cox have to flip e thick thick invoice den can file my invoice.

i start disliking tis company during my 1st day..but i started to HATE it during my 3rd day..n i still have like so many weeks to go! cox is a 2mth extendable temp..feel so freaking sian sian sian sian..but for e sake of $ shld i ren? but 3rd day nia i alrdy wan to blow up liao..
*PULL MY HAIR*

=D

2009-03-01T00:56:00.002+08:00

piss off with ur boss?
here is ur chance to vex of ur anger~ LOL

http://www.doodie.com/anger_management.php

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feel so sian..now is sunday 1am liao..few more hours it will be 2mar liao..got to start work @ 9am..sian sian sian sian..

sometime i wonder how much do i love him?

haix

=)

2009-02-28T15:40:00.000+08:00

muahahahaha..my temp didnt start ytd but mon..

haix i need new office wear~
BUT no money la..damn it..govt onli giv 200 sia..shld giv all 400 tgt hahahaha den i can SHOP n SHOP